Ciao famiglia!

We had the opprotunity to attend ward council on Thursday evening. From that experience my testimony of the organization and the structual part of the church has grown so much. These people, who they themselves are going through a rough time both financially and in other aspects, gathered together in the evening after a long day to discuss how they can help other people. They were there probably until about eleven at night,  (we left around ten, by they way we were late coming home that night, oops) discussing and making plans to help certain people not only have help with their physical well being, but overall their spiritual well being. The sweetest spirit just filled my soul as I realized the veracity of this church, in all of its aspects. Yes, there is a lot of cattiveria in the world, but there is a lot of good and we know that by small and simple means are great things brought to pass.

English Course is the best! We are getting so many potentials from it already. We are excited to meet with a lot of them this week and hopefully they will become new investigators. One guy, Antonio, said the closing prayer last time and he asked us for a copy of the finding happiness film. He was also excited that we wanted to meet with him beyond the course. How wonderful!

I had a mental break down or I guess an emotional melt down on Monday. I am crazy, just saying. I received a letter from Sorella Preston, my old campanion who is still in Bari. She sent me a picture of Giovanni's baptism and talked about the work there. When I saw the picture of Giovanni I got so happy I almost started to cry. He looked ecstatic! It was so great to see. Then as I read her letter I just got so sad that I was not there and got frustrated that I got transfered and I just had a bunch of other negative feelings. Then I started to sob! Man, poor sorella Ehorn had to deal with me wailing for like half an hour or longer. I just started feeling so inadequate, thinking that the work was going so well in Bari right after I leave, was it because I was the one hindering it, I also started thinking about how we are supposed to do our best, but I never know what my best is, then I started thinking about how much I miss you all (I usually do not get homesick, so all those feelings then started rushing in). and it just went on and on, me in my little self pity party. After I calmed down I decided the best thing I could do is pray. I always testify to people the importance of prayer, why not apply that power to myself. As I prayed I asked if Heavenly Father was happy with me and if what I am doing is what he wants and I asked him to help me figure out what my best is. Then a miracle happened. A thought of what happened that day came to mind. I lost my cute T key chain from my bag earlier that day, Then on the metro Sorella Ehorn found the exact key chain on the ground! I thought it was cool when it happened, but thinking of that little experience after my prayer and after my negative emotions I realized that that little experience was a miracle to show me that God is consapevole of me and loves me and is happy with me. Also, since that prayer, I have been getting more ideas on what to do during the day, like what I should teach for english course, or during lessons I have more confidence. I feel, like I am doing my best and that my enough is enough.

I think that this episode was brought on by the adversary. For this week has been so wonderful, I found out Giovanni got baptized, I went to ward council, from these things I found a new drive to invite more people to get baptized, to work on making sure the spirit is in the lessons and not get distracted and it really has been a good week, we got rejected just the same, but my attitude and drive to continue remained high. So I think the only way to get me down was to bombard me with these feelings of inadequecy and thinking that I have no purpose. Anyway, now you know that I am crazy, but I know that God loves us, and knows each and everyone of us. Prayer is key! I want to invite all of you to pray this week, for it is the best!

I also have been studying the concept of perfection. I will explain more about it later, for I am running out of time, but I just want to say that I have come to a conclusion. There is variety in perfection and in imperfection. I keep thinking that I am not the quote un quote perfect missionary that I thought was possible to reach, I kept comparing myself to these people I thought had reached that, diciamo perfection in this life, which is still not perfect. But the thing is that I am discovering is that there is more than one way to be perfect or to try to reach perfection. Ok, I have no idea if this is making sense, I think I think too much! But just like we know that God and Christ are different separate beings, yes they are the same in purpose, but they too are different, they have different personalities (I read in Jesus the Cristo that in greek in the bible they use the nuetur form of the word one, when Christ says he is one with the father, that denotes same in purpose, if he used the masculine form of the word it would mean same in personality, but it is not used).

I love you all! Thanks for putting up with me! I love the gospel so much, it helps us to understand our purpose and who God knows that we can become:)

I love love love you!!!!

Love,

Sorella Comollo