Sorry I did not write yesterday. We had a general Authority come, Kent Richards, in the morning so we had to go to Rome and then when we were coming back to Ladispoli my companion got really sick and threw up a ton, so we had to stay in for the rest of the night. While she was sleeping I started organizing the proslyting materials. They were so disorganized. I spent like an hour sorting through all of the languages of pamphlets and books of mormons and putting them together. I cleaned out the glass shelves and then started putting all the stuff up in order, labeling while I went. As I was putting the last chinese book of mormon on the top shelf the glass cracked and all the materials came shattering down on to the other glass shelf and then that shelf shattered and glass flew everywhere, along with all my painstakingly organized stuff. The reason I tell you this tragedy, for surely it was to me, all that time spent, a huge mess to clean up, my fingers bleeding on some of the stuff, is to let you know of my reaction, anzi, my action. I feel like I am becoming more christlike because of how I acted after this happened. I usually would have gotten frustrated, mad, worried, stressed out. Instead of going directly to the natural man insticts of those negative emotions I thought positively, patiently, calmly. Thank goodness I did not get hurt. I learned a law of physics, that a bunch of heavy books shouldn't go on top. As I picked up the glass, cutting my fingers every once in a while, I thought of how marvalous that I have a body that can heal itself, watching that the blood would stop flowing because of the coagulating properities. I think that as we learn to get closer to the spirit, doing the little things everyday, praying sincerely, really trying to apply what we learn in the scriptures and in church, our growth into becoming who God knows we can become is not infringed by reactions, but instead we are liberated by acting, we choose how we want to face the trial, we do not just allow our human nature to over take us. We have the gift of agency for heaven's sake! It is that important that we learn to use it in the best of ways. Yes, there are times when we think that our human tendencies and urges are stronger than we are, but that is not true! We are children of GOD, do you know what that means, that we have the potential and the power, if we so choose, to overcome and become like him. Plus, he, the all knowing creator, the one that is far more intelligent than we are, wants to help us, he wants to so badly, but he knows that our agency is important, so we have to come to him, to ask him for help and be willing to do what he asks us to do to get that help. Do not get discouraged if you think that you cannot overcome, if you think that you have gone to far. For you have not. There is no place that you can go where Christ cannot find you and his infinite atonement cannot heal you. It is real and it is wonderful. It is a process. I feel like the only reason I acted the way I did is because I have been really trying to pray sincerely daily and apply the scriptures daily, this has gradually helped me to change my character, but I did not realize this change until I was faced with this challenge of shattering glass. Perhaps sometimes we are given these challenges not only to try us, but for us to see our progression. Do not give up my sweet family. I know right now is a time of trial, be patient and loving and cleave to the Lord. Do not fall into the temptation to turn from him, he needs you right now and you need him.
I love you all so much, you have no idea. I pray for you and I know that you are being blessed, even if at times you don't see it. Look for the things in the day, the little things, like mamma always tells us how much she loves color after being in a gray lab all day, see the color, look for it. For a wise man once said, "by small and simple things are great things brought to pass". By those little strokes of color incredible paintings are made, by those differing wave lengths of light are sunsets to be seen and rainbows to be enjoyed. I love you and I know Heavenly Father loves you. "Truth exsists beyond belief" This is a truth, that He loves you, whether you believe it or not, so just believe it so you can be happy, because that is what love does, it makes us happy.
With all of my love and my happiness because I have such wonderful people to love,
Sorella Comollo
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